love & loyalty : inexplicable & indispensable.

There will come a day that I realize I am in love with someone but I'll only know that because he'll be in love with me too. I think on that day, we'll have to also take an oath to always remember why we've decided to love each other and realize that there will be days that we might be mad at each other, days where expectations we've kept to ourselves might be broken and days in which we might undermine the oath that we've created with our decision to be loyally in love.

At the same time, I realize that I could have an incredibly naive picture of what love is going to be like, of how being with one person day in and day out is really going to pan out.

I know one thing, is that we have a choice to be in love. Sometimes we cannot help but be in love, and we fall into it but I think we have the choice-when it comes to being "out of love" to come right back into it. I think as a human, we have a natural tendency to love and to create. So, it is always easier for us to love another individual rather than hate them. However we can-unknowingly- repel this feeling with our inflated pride and egos, but if we suppress them, overlook these crippling tendencies of self-afflicting hurt, then we can allow for love that we are organically created to cultivate in each other's lives.

Either fortunate or un-the majority of my being tends to love more than harbor platonic feelings. This in turn sometimes ends up bringing moments of disappointment rather than complete and unending happiness. However, I have to say that allowing those feelings of adoration for another person to become more prominent not only gives me more joy (if only in that present moment) but it allows for me to hopefully make someone else feel cared about, loved & important.

Love is a choice though, yes, I believe it is. I also think it takes courage to take your heart outside of its cage. I think truly courageous people will love many people but when that person of equal courage meets you and stares you square in the eye and challenges you to love them just as much as they could love you, yes, I believe that's when you've met a match. I think that's when you both have to jump into a journey together and commit to be a living definition of the very word: love.

If you can't pledge a loyalty, a life-altering loyalty, the kind that would challenge the depths of the heart of the most loyalest of lions, then you have no right to commit to someone. Sure, you can choose to be with whomever you'd like for however long you'd like but we know, ultimately, it's in hopes of a lasting connection.

I often find myself in great ocean waves of unobstructed love-of lightening bolts striking me at my very core. It has to end at some point, because it's a confined tsunami. It's nature being contained. There's not an outlet for me at the moment. I kind of feel like there's an amazing earthquake coming soon and he'll be knocking down one of the walls. This enormous wave of unending love will have an outlet soon enough.

lsw.♥